Borderline

This is me today.

Borderline

Once a month, I have a “Talent Development” working group meeting that I run with a few people on my team (there were 5) who want to move into leadership or specialist roles within our company.  It’s the one day a month that I love coming into work, and this for a 1-hour discussion.  A month ago today, 2 members of that group gave me their notice as they were leaving the company.  (And then there were 3)

Our next meeting was booked for today.  Earlier this week, one member decided to take a vacation day. On Thursday – the day of our meeting. (And then there were 2).

I came in to the office this morning to a voicemail from one of the group saying she would be out sick today. (And then there was 1)  Given that this is a discussion group, it was pointless to carry on with just 1 individual, so I cancelled the meeting.

This has been one of the few pieces keeping me motivated and engaged over the last while.  It’s fueled me, and I love finding topics, articles, discussion points for us to tackle.  Sadly, I do not see the same passion and commitment from the folks in the group.  As a point of example, I assigned a task for them to complete at our last meeting a month ago.  Two of them were working on this task yesterday afternoon.  An afterthought.

It becomes rather demotivating to pour yourself into your work and the people you work with, but to see so little reciprocity.

Knowing that I have one of my three remaining members looking externally for work, it begs me to ask “do I continue?”  I recognize that I am in a period of contraction right now.  This contraction will lead to an expansion and things will become unbelievably amazing.  It’s the not knowing how long the contraction will take that is the most challenging.

What advice do you have for me?  What can I do to re-energize myself?  What are your strategies?

How are things? (The real version. Not the ‘Instagram version’)

Earlier today, I was chatting with one of my oldest friends when she asked me a profound question – “How are things? (The real version. Not the ‘Instagram version’)

This was a very interesting question. Afterwards, the question lingered in my mind and I started to think about our social media lifestyle. It’s true – 90-95% of what people post on social media about themselves is the good stuff, the positive stuff.

Where’s the reality? Why are we so afraid to be truthful and honest with our friends and family? Are we worried that others will judge us? Are we delusional to the point of thinking that everyone else’s life is absolutely perfect and we’re the only ones who have bad days? Continue reading “How are things? (The real version. Not the ‘Instagram version’)”

In Anticipation…

Sometimes the funnest part of a trip or an activity is the anticipation leading up to it.  Take for instance my upcoming trip to Walt Disney World. Though my wife and I are unquestionably excited for the trip and know that we will be spending 8 days of pure fun and excitement, all of the time and energy we’ve put into prepping this trip for my 40th birthday has been just as much fun. Continue reading “In Anticipation…”

Intertwined by Fate – The Story of Us

Following my diabetic odyssey in March 2008, I had an opening of consciousness that launched me into a period of change; I went through a shift, if you will. One of the end results of that shift was my relationship with my now-wife, Isabelle. Had it not been for the life altering experience that I went through, I may or may not be married to the love of my life, to my soul mate. I honestly believe that Isabelle and I are soul mates, destined to find one another. And the Universe did all it could, repeatedly, to make sure it happened.

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To Foo or Not to Foo (or Reason #83 Why My Wife is Amazing)

All this past week, James Corden has been broadcasting The Late Late Show from London. On Thursday night’s show he had a Carpool Karaoke with Paul McCartney and a performance by the Foo Fighters. I had been anxiously awaiting this episode all week. So Friday night, once we had settled in for the evening, Isabelle and I plopped down on the couch in the movie room and proceeded to be thoroughly entertained. (click the video below to watch)

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Talkin’ ’bout Diabetes

There are times when I feel that my body operates on a very different level than the rest of the world. For the past 10 years I have lived with the fact that I am diabetic. I have a physical need to inject myself with insulin for times a day as my pancreas is not producing it. As a result, we diabetics need to be mindful of the amount of sugar that we ingest.

The logical conclusion is that if minimize, or eliminate, sugar from my diet and continue with my doses of insulin, I will maintain a healthy blood sugar level. But my body seems to be blissfully unaware of this bit of logic.

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Chris & James’ 40th Birthday Extravaganza

As I’ve written previously, this summer marks my 40th birthday. A few years back, I discovered that I shared birthdays with James Corden, host of The Late, Late Show on CBS. Not only were we both born on August 22, but we were both born on August 22, 1978. Yes, James Corden and Chris Budd are in fact Birthday Twins! (I still maintain that’s a thing…)

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Job vs Career

At what point does a job shift to become a career?

A little over 10 years ago, I joined my current employer’s ranks.  I was in my late-twenties, and had just escaped from a 5-year stint working at Chapters.  Escaped may be a harsh term, but I’ve never hidden the fact that I was not happy for the last 2-3 years of my time there.  I had been part of the store’s management team, working under a string of seemingly increasingly inept General Managers (I think we went through 6 GM’s in the span of my 5 years there, including a good 6-months with no GM at all).  We started off as a leadership team of 7-8 people and then got down to 3 for an extended period of time.  Needless to say, I was burned out when I left.

Until this point, I had gone from job to job since the age of 16.  Some lasted a summer, some lasted a couple of years, but the simple fact remained that they were just jobs; a means to an end.  I worked the job, they paid me.  Upon leaving Chapters, I then took a job at my current employer – a health insurance company.  I was a seasonal hire in their contact centre and eventually ended up being hired full-time.  I didn’t like the job in the call centre, but it was a job.  There it is again… job.

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